Today is Feb 16, 2014. I am a 30 year old adult.
My life has been marked by sexual obsession and i have been masturbating from 5 or 6 year old.
Why i live this life?
Having a comfort zone of a job at a MNC. I just go to office and come back.
Many of my friends are married. But i cant even bring myself to talk to a woman.
I don't have any friends. i dont know how to work a relationship.
A few close life long friends, some acquaintances, some family friends, a useful life goal, a purposeful life, Real love. These things are so away from me.
I am thinking of something. I dont have a firm base in reality.
Sometimes people find me as funny, innocent.
The constant subtle depression that puts me in to melancholy because of my sexual excess which has ruined my body.
Can i get out of this pit?
Can i raise again?
Can i be the person that other person will find inspiration from?
There are only few things to practice.
Self-control and self discipline and Meditation. These 3 things will make you a great person.
Are you prepared to do it.
I have never had the determination.
But i want to change.
I have gone through celibacy periods of 5 months and 3 months before.
I have to go through this one year.
No pornography. No online sex chatting. No visiting a prostitute. No masturbation.
If you could do this , there is a good reason for why you are born.
Otherwise its as good as living a life in a gutter and not minding it.
